Shattered Soul

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Your words stick to me like glue, but you’ll never realize – the damage you’ve caused along my brain.

It’s like a shot to my heart, causing skilled aim; your hit that only inflames my soul, drowning me in bloody shame.

What comes over you when you treat me like that?

You’re fucking me up and there’s no going back.

I never want to leave but I feel like I won’t be here much longer, because your hands on the trigger and your temper seems to get much bigger.

Maybe it’s my veracity that aggravates you or the way I gait back and forth, or maybe my screams that drive you berserk.

Well maybe it’s not me at all, maybe it’s you and having no self control. But what I don’t know won’t kill me, but it’ll surely hurt.

The more you open up pulls me in but when you belittle me, it’s like you beat me with a pistol. Your blows cause bruises along my body – until you can no longer recognize me.

Perhaps I can’t even recognize myself, therefore – Who am I anymore?

When I look in the mirror I don’t know who I’m looking at. You’ve dismembered my soul, and my bloodline runs flat.

 

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Unraveled pt 2.

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It’s safe to say that Karma catches up.

I’ve waited for this moment for almost a year and because she came after you, now you’re running scared.

Learn to take responsibility but you’ll never change. We’re women so of course we’re all “insane”.

You proved to be no different, you’re still manipulative and vindictive – do you still drink heavy on the weekends waiting to text it?

Girl after girl, you play these victims, but what happens next that you got one pregnant?

Run little boy, run. It’s what you’re good at.

But you can’t deny that Karma caught up, she always comes back.

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Do you ever feel like your world is crashing down on you all at once?

If it’s not one thing it seems to be another…

Everything comes spiraling like a tornado in the desert – there’s nothing more you can do than crouch in the smallest area while face down and covering your head… In doing that, you pray that holding on is enough to save your well being.

It’s nature’s course; A natural disaster.

It all takes place as if you were in a deep sleep, you hear someone yelling but you can’t bring yourself to wake or really “hear” what they are yelling about.

When things come crashing down, we tend to get overwhelmed with desolation and even exasperation before eventually breaking down all together. Your thoughts tell you to “keep it together” but that isn’t the case when life brings you down… Because, when you breakdown – you stop trying… Feeling like a hopeless soul wandering around.

With that being done, you learn in those times that nothing ever remains picture perfect, things don’t always go as planned, and life does bring affliction from time to time. However, you also learn that in time – may be best to stop pushing yourself with pressure so much. Sometimes it’s better to not “figure it out”; You let it go and go with the flow of things. Because when you think about it, a million things could be going wrong in existence yet you still have a million and one things to be grateful for… Creations are full of blessings, even if you don’t realize it at first.

Often times when we find ourselves in these hardships in a period of our lives, we get caught up in the emotions, anxiety and anger with all that has happened to us. It happens, but life happens. We remain so focused on the negative that we forget to appreciate what is right. We get so caught up with the bullshit that it’s difficult to see the good around us.

So what do we do? Breathe. Take step back.

Reflect on yourself. Reflect on what’s important. Reflect on the blessings.

You may lose sight of things but never lose your faith.

Trust in Him; Pieces always come together… 🖤